Turn to Lust

It is clear that wanting is good,

But desire can easily turn to lust,

And lust to envy and despair.

I know all this in my head,

I just want to wallow in it today,

To speak of the unfairness,

To drink with the down-trodden,

Because I hate this sinking feeling,

Of ups and downs, Of hope and despair, Of grasping and missing,

But in the wallowing I might truly loose out,

So am stuck,

To be or not to be,

That is my dilemma.