Outside Noise

So cold and dank and murky too,

The loud outside noise that mimics peace,

To negotiate and think that it's different today,

I'll listen but not react to the little fights,

I stand and think I need to change,

But the aggressive keeps pulling me back again,

I'm tired of fighting but life doesn't give,

I stand on the sidelines and look at life,

But once in a while it brings me back,

Outside is in and noise is quiet,

Up is down and I am they,

Frustration and murky waters exist,

Can I stand outside and be done with this?

The nagging and trimming,

Of outside noise